MizzleRocks

I am a human. I am flawed just like all other humans. I feel and express myself, just as you do. I love and I hate. I laugh and I cry. I bleed and I mend.

I am a musician. I bare my soul from behind a guitar and my lyrics are my experiences. I write from the heart and my inspiration is my life. Be it a life of pain, a life of fury, or a life of immeasurable joy, it is there for all to see.

I am a comedian. I laugh at things most people would find distasteful. I speak of things that most people would consider inapt and I am generally tactless.

I am an advocate. I have ardent views on the way people are treated and I am constantly pushing the envelope of equality.

I am passionate. I profess my love, or the lack there of, of all things avidly, be it music, art, beauty, food, nature, or just life in general.

In this blog, you will see a possibly unexpected range of posts. One day I may be focused on the political climate of current events, the next day I could be focused on sharing great music. Sometimes I might find a funny picture that I feel the entire world needs to laugh at, other times I will share my poetry with you.

No matter the context of my emotions, you can rest assured that you will find only guileless truth and sincerity.

I hope you enjoy your experience here as much as I enjoy sharing it with you.

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Aug
31

i don’t know what to do…

I feel like I’m wasted space right now.  I haven’t had a job in 8 months and it’s not for lack of trying.  I am broke and feel like i do nothing but inconvenience everyone i know.  I know for a fact that this situation ruined my relationship with the guy that i was/am in love with and that is the worst thing for me to have to realize.

all of the stress that I’ve gone through has brought me, full circle, back to had habits.  I started smoking cigarettes again, which is stupid, because i can’t afford to buy them, so i smoke off of everyone else.

I hardly leave my house anymore because i can’t afford to do anything, besides, my car is fucked because it won’t pass emissions and i can’t afford to fix it, so the tag expired.

I’m supposed to be moving to Boston soon, but how can i if i can’t even find a job long enough to save some cash to fix my car and pay for the drive up.

If ever there was a time in my life that i was worthless, i mean completely fucking pointless to exist, here it is. I’m living it now and it sucks.

They say that there is always a way… Hell, even i tried the whole positive thinking thing and it got me nowhere.

I’m incredibly fortunate to be surrounded by a few people that care enough to help, but I’m wearing out the hospitality and i even hate myself for being such a burden.

What am i going to do? I am seriously afraid at this point. I don’t know what to do.

Some of the thoughts that pass through my head are getting to be worse than ever before.  my life is in pieces and i can’t see any chance of it coming back together. i have lost too much, too many people and the one that mattered more than any.